Learning comes in many forms. But for me, learning comes from making mistakes.

I'm a really stupid fellar, saying wrong things all the time, doing the wrong things all the time.

Most of the time i talk alot,
sometimes not knowing what i say is wrong.
Feelings are hurt whenever my mouth is open,
but relationships are sometimes easy to fix with just words.

Sometimes, i dont know about some things cos i never watched videos,
or i didn't read books because i hated books,
but until i did it, i did things that i shouldn't have done.
Too late to repair the damage, i have to live with the consequences.

Currently really depressed for some happenings recently.
Dont know what's gonna happen next,
thinking back i realised i was really dumb,
but i cant change history, for it is done.

Trying to have a happy front in order not to give out bad vibes.
Just really tiring that i have to do it all the time.
Wont be able to hold back for very long.
Gotta hide whenever i am tired.


That was the worst poem ever.

alright peace out!~

I hope my classmates dont read this.

Post dedicated to dar:

Hi dar, hahas. i know it's hard to type using psp so thanks for ur effort of typing in my tagboard. =]

I dont really know what to update about la.. But i'm kinda worried for the both of us, knowing ur parents know about me already.

I was so worried last night u know... i was watchin tennis halfway and u msned me, just with three words saying "Dad found out". I was cold out, but because i didn't want my family to ask, i kinda acted like everything was fine and stuff. i acted normally and nobody suspected a thing.

I couldn't really sleep well last night, kept thinking about what might happen to us in the future, and i was kinda afraid you would not want me anymore if we were to stop smsing or msning each other.

It's kinda embarassing to say it, but i kinda cried a little last night, and this morning too. I forced myself to sleep, but i kept waking up. Woke up almost 10 times. I actually saw the sky brighten a little every time i opened my eyes. I couldn't sleep anymore at 8:30am. Just felt really horrible. Felt like vomiting and it was really cold. had a little headache too. haiz.

Well sorry for jumping about points, but yesterday when your dad called me, i was seriously expecting the worst. But apparently not prepared enough. It was what i expected he would say, that he would not let me meet you OR talk to you at all again, or he'd report the police against me or something.

Well i'm still hoping we would be able to chat..... without the thought of ur dad killing me. x_x otherwise i wouldn't know whether u've changed or something....

If gladys's dad is reading:


Dear Mr Lam,
I'm really not a bad person. please believe me.
I just want her to be happy.
I'm trying not to make her fail in her studies and stuff.
In fact i'm trying my best to help her in her studies.
I'll not do anything to hurt her just to make me happy.
I might not be the brightest one but i'm doing my best.
Please let me talk to her again, sir. Please...

Post end.

Haiyo. Holiday. So boring.
Hi
Always doing project. Otherwise playing computer. Arhh.......
Dar!
Tomorrow PIANO EXAM! ARHH!!!!
Thanks
ARHH!!!!!!!!!
For
Ok la at least i got to borrow my dad's pants to wear hahahahahahahah.
Tagging =p
Hmm... nothing much to update about lehhhhhhh....... haiz.
I
Arh sian.
Miss
Wan update also nothing to update =.=
You!
What to update neh...........
<3
Ok la nothing le. bye bye. =D
I love you dar, so much. =]
Haha i use the word "wor" on rasyidin den he keep scolding vulgar at me and....
Ehhehehe next week next weekkk!!!! =p
ok ok bye.

Wah now then update again. So long liao hor! sorry leh!

Lol i rather not update if i dont have anything to update about. =D

Today was a rather nice day for me, because i finally had the chance to meet dar again. =]

Dont read the words in black if u dun like mushy stuff:

I love her hugs.. it makes me feel warm inside.

Every time i touch her hands, all the loneliness i feel inside seem to just disappear in a moment.

And sometimes even though we're not saying a word, it feels like we're understanding each other better every second we're together.

She has the nicest eyes... but every time i look, i cant seem to get my eyes off them, and unintentionally make her feel uneasy.

She never wants to leave my side, and so i never will, because we were meant to be together. =)


Lol. Mushy moment. Argh today go out then kena bitten by something sia. So pain den dar thought i was imagining things, and thought i was just afraid i was poisoned or something even though the fact that it's hurting, like some kind of needle poke into my skin. lol... now the bite so red.. lolol.. ahh well.. must've been the donno wat honey soap i've used this morning. Argh no wonder so many insects were coming towards me. damn it. lol.

Ahh nvm, at least i got to spend time with my favourite girl today. =]

So hard to keep the relationship a secret lah. lol... that day we came to near my house and we were spotted by the hairstylist my mum always goes to. Arhh i hope she doesn't tell her. =x

No la it's not that i wanna keep it a secret lah, it's cos my parents dun allow me to have relationship de... i donno why also. then dar also same case... then she always have to hide from the seniors and everyone that her parents know. Arhh so hard!!!

Lol but i hope we wont have to hide it for long....

OK end of post.