Update! Wahaha. today started out quite horribly! Woken up by mum to buy breakfast home. Wanted to sleep more but cant cos 10+ le. also cos my dad angry that the construction guy go lend his forklift to lift something so heavy that it spoiled the forklift. lol.

Then after that i got kinda lonely so i asked a fren for advice luh but then i kinda annoyed that fren then that fren scolded me lor. But then wat that fren said was kinda true lah, so though i kinda got abit sad but then i know what that fren said was true so ok. Still, sorry to this friend for being such a bad friend. I'll do my best to be better from now on.

Then after that go driving range as usual. Then after that dad mum argue over small thing again... then after that went to my dad's newly bought unfurnished condominium The Sail@ Marina Bay. For rent out one la. There got nice view of the city and the bay. Can see national day parade fireworks. Took some pics from there. My phone lousy la, so alot also lousy pics. Here are some:






Haiya but people scold me i will depressed the whole day leh. Makes me feel like a failure. Maybe i am la.

My sis tell me my piano result out le, must collect on monday. I think i failed.

Sorry i came home late dar, after eating dinner i went to help my dad put some stuff in the office. Reach home 10:40pm le, just nice u had to go offline. Lol. =( My heart pain la, always cannot meet u der. My fault, not yours.

I think i very horrible fren leh. When my frens get close with me they will tell me some stuff they dun wan me to tell other pple but then i wont get it then i will tell other people de then i very bad lah... Then make pple think bad of him and stuff. Haiyo.. Then sometimes my frens sad i also cannot tell. Argh. I think nobody is able to stand me lah. Even my best friend cant stand my complaining anymore. I dont think i can find anyone that would be able to stand me... cos i'm so hard to cheer up sometimes. or more like every time. haiz. i feel useless.

I am so stupid. MUST LEARN TO BE CLEVER.

end. sad.

Singaporeans are either selfish, or unobservant.

I was sitting down in an MRT train and i saw about 3 or 4 parents of young children enter at either dhoby ghaut or city hall. I recall seeing a chinese mum with a baby on a trolley, a malay mother also with a baby on her trolley, an indian father also with a baby on his trolley, and a mother with a baby in her arms. No vacant seats were available at that time. When the train started moving, only one person was kind enough to let one of the parents sit down, and so it was the indian father with the trolley.

I felt kinda bad cos i was sitting down too, so i moved my total 10kg laptop and book bags away from the seats, not even by any strap or handles on the bags, and stood up wanting to ask the malay mum whether she wants the seat, as she was the closest to me/ the seat. However before i could finish asking, (which was within 2 seconds) a chinese auntie , probably around 30-40 yrs old, quickly snatched the seat. When i finished asking, i heard the aunt being so happy to get the seat and when i turned back and forth and looked at the malay mum, i realised she didn't even hear me. Well i din bother to repeat, since that chinese auntie was already seated.

At the next stop, 2 passengers beside her left the train. What's more absurd, is that she asked her friend, also a singaporean, to sit down. She was even younger than her. The other seat was also taken up by a male singaporean. (not me)

Only till a few stops later, both aunties left the train and the malay mum was finally able to sit down.

The chinese lady with the baby in her arms also left the train.

The chinese lady with the baby in a trolley had a non-opening door corner to herself, so she's fine.

Conclusion: Only one of thousands of singaporeans would let their seat to someone who needs it more?

And i thought i was gonna do a good deed letting my seat to someone who needs it more, not need it less.

P.S. the sign that says "Let the seat to those who need it more", the yellow one, was just on top of the aunties' heads. Yep, they missed it. Lol.

So when will singaporeans really learn to be unselfish like the japanese?

Wish to see a day like that.

After these few days, i finally realise that sometimes, nobody understands better than somebody, which sometimes makes nobody understanding a good thing.

I love to make people think.
P.S. Nobody and Somebody are people.

This post is not to intentionally hurt any reader but to express myself.

New update again.

Haiz, i dont know why i'm so shy to talk about me having a girlfriend named gladys. I guess i'm still not really used to the age thing. Everybody knows that 13 yrs old isn't really a mature age for a girl. Everyone must think i'm crazy to be together with such a young girl.

Well she's really nice, and childish at many times. I can't blame her, cos it's not her fault that i'm in love with her. It's kinda my fault for playing that audition game which i'm not the right age to play. I always think to myself, that she would be suited better if she were to be with someone of her own age, but i just don't want to let her go.

Well now stefan found my blog, and i guess he's kinda thinking i'm a weirdo being with gladys too. i feel really horrible to be laughed at actually. Even if they say they dont think it's that bad, i know in their heart i've been marked as strange.

Plus, i feel like i'm not really the kind of guy that's very attractive to girls. I'm not like rasyidin, who has the flow and the looks that would be a chickmagnet. I'm the nerd type, and i'm also a very strange person. I cant talk properly to people i dont know well too. I always create an awkward silence if i dont have a known friend with me.

Some people said i'm kok eye to be choosing a girl like gladys. They all say she acts cute and stuff, but why should i care? I know deep in her heart she's good, and she loves me deeply.

But i'm a very easily confused person, because i always listen and give in to people.

All i know is that gladys isn't ACTING cute, but she IS cute. Violent at times, but still.. hahahaa..

To me, it's just really damn confusing.... Nobody really understands. I want to be with her. I have strong feelings for her. But i really cannot see her. I can barely talk to her. I feel lonely at times. Her parents wont let me be with her either. I've already been confused with the archi stuff, but this is another thing that confuses me. I'm a really confused person. Maybe it's not that complicated, maybe it's just that i'm dumb. I wonder if there's a solution to happiness. I know she really likes me, and i really like her too. But i know we might not even be able to be together in the future. Parents matter too... I dont know what to write right now, my mind is not composed. It's a huge chunk of messy information floating inside my head and i know this post has no structure.

Frankly speaking, no offence dar, but... but... i think u're a little selfish at times okay... i'm sorry. Actually even some of your friends agree. (please dont ask me to name them. haha) i know i'm an idiot to be writing this here. but i really have no other way i can tell u. i'm really sorry. i dont mean to insult u, but it's something i just cant hide from u forever.

Still confused. Dont know what to post liao. maybe one day i will post a spam of alphabets that make no sense to show how confused i am.

Projects, Piano, Golf, Friends, Games, Dance, Girlfriend. Too much to think about.

I need counselling. lol. no i dont.

And.. i wont be writing in black fonts le, cos my dar psp cannot see black font.
IF YOU CAN READ THIS YOU ARE AN IDIOT.
THIS IS NOT BLACK FONT, THIS IS HIGHLIGHTED BLACK FONT!

Update!

So long never update le. Uhh today nearly miss submission. hahahah. actually i finished the calculations on saturday le, but then i keep procrastinating from putting it into the titleblock then today nearly late sia. XD donno teacher mark late anot. Anyway submitted le la, late also cannot do anything le. hahaha

Sunday won 20th for the golf tournament wor. YAY! din expect to win anything actually. While playing i tot i was doing quite badly, but it turns out it was pretty good, hitting a 91 for score, and 39 points for the stableford tournament.


Tomorrow is an important day for me. It's a day that i should live for. Hehe. Hint, if this day did not exist, then dar wouldn't too. :D

So big hint, it's more like telling the answer directly le lor. XD

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAR! <3 =]

Wish u happy and live long long and study good good hor. :D dun miss me too much la, wait u sad again. =] Dont worry dar, i'll be with you forever. Even if everyone doubts it, even if cannot see each other, my heart is still and will forever be with you.

Hope your parents can find the heart to forgive me one day.

I love you dar. Happy birthday. =]

Pnut signs off with love. <3