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Hey everyone lol. ignore the previous post la. i realise alot of pple read my blog. lolol

anyway, that day me and my frens went out together from after school submission to night time about 10pm lor. hmm, eat at seoul garden, go play pool, play para para, play bowling, den eat dessert, den there got one cat so nice :D i go pat pat hahaha i got pic. later den upload. Someone say look like leopard or something. hahahaha

Then another day i had a nightmare sia. Like 2 or 3 days ago nia. Waaa i tink i too stress liao. That day ah, i dream that it was presentation day lor. Den it was my turn to present liao, den i damn scared, then after finish presenting, which in the dream was less than 5 seconds, i was talking to my frens. Then i realise that i din submit my cardboard model lor, den my fren i forgot who say that the model is a big portion of marks leh. Walao scare me lor. Tink i do archi till too stress liao hahahahah

Just now not long ago just got back from golf, and i took shower le. Now going to dad office do something again. hahaha it's saturday btw. XD work 7 day a week. School same, dad work same. lolol

Alright bye pple.

And the gladys/jess-hater, pls name yourself. I wont allow my friends to be insulted. Or else i will let glad block u. =p

I feel like i'm more of a dog than a man.

Though symbols point that i'm a horse, such as my chinese zodiac of horse, my english zodiac of saggitarius, which is a horse-man thingy, but i have a life as a dog.

All the while i'm always helping others do stuff even when i got my own stuff to do. I dont know how to say no. Even after i say no, it would still turn out to be a yes. No matter it's classmates, friends, family, it's all the same.

I've been disappointed by my sister again, who yesterday said she would clean the hamster cage today morning. She didn't. And whenever i didn't clean the cage, she would keep annoying me again and again, no matter whether i'm busy doing my homework or playing game. In their eyes, i'm always free and playing games. In fact, every other person knows how hard it is to be in architecture, even if it's only not to score below C.

What's horrible is that the cage isn't even made for a hamster. It has a tray, and a container. I dont get help from them in cleaning the cage. Only sometimes my big sis would be nice enough to help in washing the bottle or cleaning the newspaper. My second sis ALWAYS says "argh i'm tired" or "i'm busy" or something like that. Oh yeah baby i'm never tired, i'm a robot and i have no feelings, i live to serve you your majesty and everyone else. I'm just a dog and i'm only living to serve others. All others do is tell me to do things for them and never return the favour. I always feel i've been taken advantaged of. I have nobody to talk to. All i have is this blog. This blog where all my classmates and friends can read and mock me more. Laugh, and scold, and all i can do is keep it all in.

I know i'm hard to cheer up. Those who've seen me sad have tried and failed many many times. The friends who did try, i appreciate, but they kinda get annoyed by my inability to become happy. That's only because my problems arent solved, and will never be. I always appear happy in school, just so that my friends would be happy. I dont care if they wanna know how i feel today, because i know i'd only answer that i'm fine and i'd give them a warm smile, or joke with a fake smile.

Sometimes i just feel like crying, but everytime i do i will tell myself that i'm just tired. Well it's kinda true that i get emotional easily when i'm tired.

The truth is, a blog isn't even a good place to fully express oneself.

Sometimes i just wish i had a shoulder to cry on. But i know that people would just call me a baby or a girl or gay or something like that to mock me.

and when i talk back or argue with anyone in my family, i'd just get scolded and stuff. Sometimes my big sis does protect me because i have no right to speak, but the arguments are often one-sided, and obviously the side is not mine. I cant fight back, because i dont want to be kicked out of the house.

I HATE THIS. I'm stressed, tired, annoyed, but every second i have to relax gets stolen by my family to do some sai gang. That's just excellent. Just, great. Very good. Wonderful. More than i can ask for yeah. WHEEEEEEEE!

Stefan told me to grow balls. Therefore i dug a hole and put some golf balls inside, hoping some golfy tree would grow out.

I hope some callaway golf clubs ripen from the tree. Those oughtta improve my game. :D

I wish i had human rights. NAwwwwww, that's not possible for a doggie like me.
Depressed, yet nobody really cares.

I've got nothing to post anymore. :\

Life is full of bad memories and sorrows.

Mine is made up of every mistake i've made.

Some mistakes can never ever be fixed. I have one mistake of that sort, that can never be resolved.

I've fallen into a deep deep hole now. I cant ever get out of it. It has been sealed shut.

There's no solution to the problem i'm having. Nobody understands the problem because i never told anyone.

Yeah i'm probably having the perfect life in everyone's eyes. What everyone dont know is that i do not expose the emotions i have inside.

Thus, the craziness in class.

This post is purposely made vague so that people will continue to not understand.

I do not tell anyone because i know i will be laughed at, or looked down on. So, i will continue to hide this story. Even the closest of friends dont know my story, and they will continue to not know. Nobody's interested anyway.

But be forewarned that one day i might not exist anymore.