New update again.

Haiz, i dont know why i'm so shy to talk about me having a girlfriend named gladys. I guess i'm still not really used to the age thing. Everybody knows that 13 yrs old isn't really a mature age for a girl. Everyone must think i'm crazy to be together with such a young girl.

Well she's really nice, and childish at many times. I can't blame her, cos it's not her fault that i'm in love with her. It's kinda my fault for playing that audition game which i'm not the right age to play. I always think to myself, that she would be suited better if she were to be with someone of her own age, but i just don't want to let her go.

Well now stefan found my blog, and i guess he's kinda thinking i'm a weirdo being with gladys too. i feel really horrible to be laughed at actually. Even if they say they dont think it's that bad, i know in their heart i've been marked as strange.

Plus, i feel like i'm not really the kind of guy that's very attractive to girls. I'm not like rasyidin, who has the flow and the looks that would be a chickmagnet. I'm the nerd type, and i'm also a very strange person. I cant talk properly to people i dont know well too. I always create an awkward silence if i dont have a known friend with me.

Some people said i'm kok eye to be choosing a girl like gladys. They all say she acts cute and stuff, but why should i care? I know deep in her heart she's good, and she loves me deeply.

But i'm a very easily confused person, because i always listen and give in to people.

All i know is that gladys isn't ACTING cute, but she IS cute. Violent at times, but still.. hahahaa..

To me, it's just really damn confusing.... Nobody really understands. I want to be with her. I have strong feelings for her. But i really cannot see her. I can barely talk to her. I feel lonely at times. Her parents wont let me be with her either. I've already been confused with the archi stuff, but this is another thing that confuses me. I'm a really confused person. Maybe it's not that complicated, maybe it's just that i'm dumb. I wonder if there's a solution to happiness. I know she really likes me, and i really like her too. But i know we might not even be able to be together in the future. Parents matter too... I dont know what to write right now, my mind is not composed. It's a huge chunk of messy information floating inside my head and i know this post has no structure.

Frankly speaking, no offence dar, but... but... i think u're a little selfish at times okay... i'm sorry. Actually even some of your friends agree. (please dont ask me to name them. haha) i know i'm an idiot to be writing this here. but i really have no other way i can tell u. i'm really sorry. i dont mean to insult u, but it's something i just cant hide from u forever.

Still confused. Dont know what to post liao. maybe one day i will post a spam of alphabets that make no sense to show how confused i am.

Projects, Piano, Golf, Friends, Games, Dance, Girlfriend. Too much to think about.

I need counselling. lol. no i dont.

And.. i wont be writing in black fonts le, cos my dar psp cannot see black font.
IF YOU CAN READ THIS YOU ARE AN IDIOT.
THIS IS NOT BLACK FONT, THIS IS HIGHLIGHTED BLACK FONT!