Yesterday i kept thinking of one thing. And i wrote about it in my phone...

"2:36am, 30/11/2008
This is the first time i wrote a message like this. The problem is i like her, yet i seriously feel i'm not good enough for her. Even if people say i'm a nice guy, how would i know whether she feels the same? And will being nice really be enough to win her heart? I cant stop thinking about her. She's pretty, nice, and so charming. I know just because of that many guys are falling for her. Yet i also know that most of them did not even make it into her list... What would really be enough to be with her and to make her happy all her life? I seriously wonder. I dont want her, i need her. But somehow i just know that she wont want me back...
Dont know what to do. So many possibilities could happen if she knows the truth. Haiz. Lovesick."

Somehow i felt a sense of deja vu, because i once thought about writing a blog thinking whether i'd love again.
In that thought i remembered updating my blog in this same manner... And thought i will never get who i really want. Now i'm afraid.

Somehow it hurts to always have someone always in ur head, though you know she'll never be yours.

But, maybe there's hope. because i havent asked her... Be Optimisitic. ><